Pressure

When I was hired I got my job without a drug test.  Now, with a promotion I get to take the test that I should have taken before I ever started.  So, without any preparation for such a test I went into it for what I thought was going to be super easy...um, no.  Apparently the pressure stopped me from being able to perform such a simple task.  Not only did I feel that pressure once, but the young woman said if I gave it another try with 3 cups of water I could try again in an hour.  It was even worse the second time.  I guess as I've gotten older and away from the childbearing years the thought of the cup has lessened and now when I'm required to give a sample I can't.  The room was too sterile and cold.  The test was timed and now with that information I can prepare for another go at it tomorrow.  I had to reschedule.  My boss is gonna love that.  Now when I go to work I'll take more water and time it so that I have to go.  It is funny how pressure mentally can affect the body.  I've never given it much thought until today.  I always thought it was easy to separate the two but now I'm beginning to see that things are more complicated than that.  Amazing the things we can learn about ourselves when it comes to something so simple.